Morning all, guess who?
Iv received some beautiful emails and messages asking what i have been up to and why i have not posted anything in quite some time so figured id do a little re cap of my life.
First and foremost: I Quit my agency!!. Over my birthday i took a break and went to London to stay at a friend’s place. When i returned my agent seemed to be mad at me somehow, I wasn’t getting any bookings but heard from sources that a few men had requested me. The final straw was when i asked my boss that perhaps he could advertise me…. his reply was discomfiting and shocked me to the core so much that i ended it.
He said he hasn’t been advertising me for quite some time as he noticed me getting fat and no one would want to book me. He said I needed to go to the gym and loose 10 kg then he would think about pushing me more. Being my friend in the past he knew all about my body issues I had overcome and how conscious i was about body image never believing i was good enough. To be starved of bookings and making no potential income from him in 3 months i was done. We both agreed it was for the best.
Since then our friendship is somewhat OK, he did try to salvage it by saying he didn’t really believe I was done for good, offering me to perhaps go private back to the way we use to be, offering me more money but of course when i declined i was flooded with abusive texts. Standard! we only text now and i haven’t seen him since we spent Christmas eve together. In a way i do feel sad for him, underneath all the aggression he is a sweet guy with a heart i just feel its been broken to many times for it to be mended and truly let anyone in.
My Sugar life: Has also come to an end. Although the times together were amazing and the income truly helped I felt in a weird way dependent on him for some time. Having quite the agency he was my only source of income and being a strong woman i felt bad. He is a true gentlemen, helped me quit, offered to help me start-up as an independent even asking other girls he had booked about their agencies and how i should join. We stopped seeing each other earlier this year, as i have my desires so does he. He ended up meeting another women on seeking arrangements, who was young had kids and worked at a brothel. I felt for him, he seemed so infatuated with her and in a way i could tell she was playing him for money but i didn’t have the heart to say. I recently spoke to him as it marked a year since the first time we met and his first escort. ( yours truly) He and his wife are now both dipping their toes in the escort pool, as a couple they are exploring sexual desires and truly connecting in a way he feels they never have. That right there is why i loved my job, it wasn’t all about the money it was about helping men get that thing they were lacking and his managed to incorporate it in his marriage.So proud and happy for him, we both ended up helping each other in our darkest moments.
Love: Since leaving i have met the most amazing man any woman can ask for, not to sound to sappy but i honestly didn’t think they existed anymore. He sends me love notes, buys me flowers just because, buys me presents, takes me on adventures and tells me every day how lucky he feels to have me in his life.
He recently took me to a very! expensive hotel in Sydney and it had me thinking the last time i was there was with a client, but i can do these glamour things in life without having to rely on a sugar daddy. Why be the sugar when you can be the wife. We have gone away to vineyards, hikes in the mountains, whale watching, and he just booked an amazing get away to Thailand.
Things seem to really be looking up at the moment, although we are far from perfect and by no means rich we are happy. I have recently moved in with him and bought a new addiction to my fur bunny collection.( Pets with Couples I no isn’t always the best move).
Since leaving and looking back I don’t regret the work i did in fact i loved it, i just didn’t love my agent which may have killed it for me. I had tones of opportunities being asked to talk on today FM, Pose for Penthouse Mag, has multiple job offers from other agencies and also clients, being asked to do porn,and also manage another firm. I love what i do and im good at it however when your work effects your mental state and you are as unhappy as i was it’s not worth you wasting your years on. To be fair how long can you even be an escort for? in a way im happy im out now and not when i am 35 because im to old.
Will post another message soon about all the stuff I learnt which is actually extremely effective for anyone in this business. I learnt a lot about personal appearance, how to manage clients, tips and tricks to make you linger in there mind after you leave and really make an impression so they will tell friends. ( this helps i ended up at one point with 4 friends all booking me individually not even from the site just word of mouth)
Until then xx
fyi this is me fat, let me know what you think, would you have booked me?